Sambhav

Sambhav K Sharma

I can talk about the sun, sky,mountain,lakes,deserts,rains,snow and blooming. i can talk about shopping,eating,cooking, walking,sleeping,running. i can talk about paris, rome, sfo, nyc,sydney, zurich,barbados. i can talk about federer, phelps, schumi and dhoni. i can talk about movies, music, soaps,reality shows,dance and theatre. i can talk about skyscraper,villas,chateau,cruises and jet planes. i can talk about dollar rupee, euro, dinar,pound and yen. lolz. there are (a lot of) times when i actually talk nothing!!, act like dumb, act with indifference or simply enjoy the rhythm of silence! the other day i met a man who is on the threshold of enlightenment. as we talked, i continued talking all that revolved aound the above. i could sense that he felt sorry for my shallowness and worldly attachments. but as he is already on his path of self discovery, he choose to keep his views to himself. i smiled to myself as i thought about it later. i am for sure, aware of this awful flaw that is being nurtured by none other than me. as i try to walk the other side of bridge(i do it oftenly), i realise thatwalking alone is the "safest." i really can't talk about all that is intangible- my journey to find myself. to the innermost space in me. my fears and joys, failures and successes, emotions and feelings are my life! these are the stuff that keep me ticking;these make my heart flutter. precisely these may sum up all those matters to me- what some might call"true calling". all this is guarded and tenderly watched just by me. this part of my world belongs just to me and it is indeed very rarely indeed that i would allow anyone in. its my very own sanctum sanctorum. lolz. we learn evolved and grow with our own experiences. i have lived most of my life like this; that's how my mind and body are conditioned. it is a status quo that has been maintained and i am not ready,yet, to get rid of it. there has been a constant tug of war between pleasure and pain, dream and reality, reason and emotion and inner and outer self. but i do hope to acquire someday- sooner rather than later---" the wisdom to bridge the gap between the tangible and the intangible. may be that could bring in more peace and solitude in me. lolz i'd like god to shower his graceon me so that i can simply unfold my wings and fly high,higher, even higher... for now, however, i'm content to just wait and watch... !